There are some people that are to be left in the past. It's for the best, really, because that way you can keep them the ideal way they were preserved in your memory. They do not fit into your present the way they fit into your past,because things have changed, and maybe forever. And you have changed too, both of you. And it will never be the way it was. Ever. You can love them in this perfect past you had together, and that is enough. It's perfect that way. But it's painful - to try to bring them into your and their present. It's complicated, it's pointless and it hurts.

are you sure you wanna judge?

define "loneliness". without a dictionary, define it right now. Sitting by the window, in a dark room and watching raindrops slowly fall down. define it when it seems that in the whole world there is no one who'd leave whatever they are doing and come. Just because you need it. Define it, when you're a stranger to yourself and you've gotten so tired of being shot down that one more time doesn't really make a difference. Define it the next time you're reaching out for the phone and realize that there is no one you can call. or no one you would call - for that matter. There is no need to be looking for reasons. And there is no reason to get judgmental - first define "loneliness" the next time you're in your room like that, feel it and maybe you'll understand that there is no reason to feel superior or better just because your room is well-lighted and there are hundreds of phone numbers in your contacts. Because one day it might get empty. I sincerely wish you that it never does, but if it ever happens - whatever the reason for it may be - I won't be judgmental, and I wish that now you wouldn't be either.