we need it

I guess it's a natural treat of character - the desire to be valued by those who are alike to us- by people. It gives us a sense that we're 'right' enough to fit the group, that there is nothing wrong with us. In a way we were 'programmed' to aim for the good, like we have an invisible internal radar to aim us towards the things that intentionally were meant to be good, from the very beginning. And these values are our reference point, something we hold on to to be able to tell right from wrong. We need a scale to measure our thoughts and believes up to and we were given one by our  Creator, and if He would have chosen to give us a different set of values we would 've considered them to be the right ones. And our desire to be liked and to be valued by the other people is a quite natural one - it's an indicator that we're 'right' so to say, that we're going in the right direction and that we're up to those hight principles that initially were given to direct us. But us, people - we somewhat distort this directions, we use false values oftentimes and wrong scales to 'measure' other people, we let our judgements to be based on vanity, on greed, on envy, on anything but on a selfless love - love to other people and therefore the willingness to see them as they truly are and to accept them that way. Sometimes better than we think of them, sometimes worse. So before making other's people judgements  be any sort of orientier for yourself - make sure those people use the right scale, that they are driven by the genuine vision of life as it should be - as God has intended it to be and has enclosed that desire into our Hearts....

I guess, I don't know....Apparently, I don't know anything and I wonder if anyone does. Tired of being scared. I guess I'm tired of myself. I don't know who I am, and I wonder - can I figure it out by myself, or do I need other people to be the indicators? On the one hand - do I have the right to engage other people in my life while it's a mess, but on the other hand - can I get all the pieces together all by myself? I mean, other people will be interacting with me after I'm done figuring myself out. And basically I'm doing it in order not to hurt other people when(if) they get involved in my life. So do I ask for advice or is it something I am to do alone? I wonder if this sounds like a bunch of crazy stuff... my mind's going crazy sometimes, or maybe the world is - can't say for sure. I should probably start crying out for help, so if you can help me to figure myself out- please, don't hesitate to let me know!!

There are cases when you can aways come back. You know you can and nothing would stand in the way. But there are times when you know that you can't come back, you simply can't and it's not a matter of pride of offense, hurt or anything else. You just know, probably, that you're not wanted and if you care for someone you don't do something that person wouldn't want.